I understand this post completely. Your information has helped me in-game, that, I am thankful and appreciate the effort you went into doing what you did.
I could type my life downs and ups, starting in 1978 when I married an abusive wife who knew I would never harm her in any way, and lie about the bruises and scars on my body, and isolate the 4 children from that marriage from me, but that's not an area I wish to put here.
Stay strong and you will prevail, life is good.
Zen hugs your way.